xoxo

heyy! this is nearly summer holiday i guess. and still don't knw what to do during 2 months except going back to homecountry. my dad said we would hang round shanghai china beijing etc (i already posted it before) but he's not sure so yeah, we haven't booked a ticket yet though. i was a bit mad at him. that's going to be a long way trip cause spend 4 days/5 days in indonesia then going through another city, after that get back here while waiting for my dad to get off work. i really wanna go to halong bay though, does anyone been there? i was just have a look a photos of people's vacation on halong bay. it was really awesome! i bet they had an awesome holiday! well, i had been asking my dad to have a vacation there but he said we would go later on. today is happily sunday but i think today isn't my day. my grandma just visited here for a month and she would stay here til summer holiday. oh my gosh =( what a bad luck!! she's a bit annoying and fussy. she eats a lot. you know what, i like croissant but my mom told her already that it was mine! i just ate it then a minutes later my grandma asked me, did u see croissant here? and i was just like what the f*ck was that!! and many many others problem that she made! and cause i live in apartment, and we just have 3 bedrooms and 3 bathrooms, so 1 my parent's room, 1 mine, and 1 more bryan's room (my younger brother). so she sleeps in bryan's room. and bryan sleeps together with me in my room for a month!! i usually swim with bryan at 5 pm or 4 pm when the sun lights off!

poem

silence, whispered, running, and hiding
dwell in the dreams that had been blown by the wind
whispered amid the silence deafening noisy crowd
running with weak legs like a reliable dancer
and hiding from all of the sins that human made

whether you are good at hiding and singing?
like the emperor king?
smooth face bandaged like the sky with beautiful silk suteres
wrap all existing falsehood

i really admire Your creature
it has certainly been my intention to taste a drop of honey
but the sweetnes was just a cover of a piece of soul
whether it is in the illusion of the human soul?


2nd Poem

have you heard about the story of the king of the jews with a beautiful queen?
who lifted her chin and lifted her dress
sweeping the other's dream
into a unified dust in the wind
and despair turned into a string of words

heart beat is the expectation
every breath is a fantasy
wooden stick is a symbol
elegance of every movement that you made

hey, but i am not a part of a circus attraction!
you are a devotee of the dark world
i am not a nobleman
i am not much of a leaf that is easy to fly by the wind
swept away by the rain and destroyed in the storm

i felt like a speck of hope turned into a glimmer of light
stars can emit their own lights
i am not going insane tapestry pearl
i am just stranded on the edge of the wold